...is just ridiculous. I mean, let's be real here, He's crazy.
I'm not trying to blasphemous, or crass, or whatever. I'm merely stating that...by our standards, God is completely ridiculous. He's so....patient. And loving. And merciful. And gracious. And what the hell is He thinking??
I mean, does He know me? Does He know YOU?? Has He not been wearing His glasses for the last...oh, I don't know...couple thousand years?? Have we managed to sneak our actions past Him?
Part of the reason I have been so frustrated with God is that all that seems to be the case! I can sit in front of my tv or radio for no less than 5 minutes and see that the world is screwed up. We as people are screwed up. The bride of Christ, His church, is leading the pack, and yet...He let's us continue on. I didn't understand this.
Back in 2007, I was preparing to attend a Christian event, where I honestly thought that God was going to open up parts of the earth and swallow it whole. And you know what? I was okay with that. I asked Him for it even! I was lit with this righteous indignation, filled with a holy fury. I was angry with Him for sitting up there doing 'nothing' for so long, and I was SURE that this was the time He was going to act.
What I was expecting didn't happen. So I got upset. Classic toddler like temper tantrum. I was so disappointed in Him. I cried and cried, and began to question His power at all.
It didn't occur to me that maybe God was showing His power off at it's best.
The power to stand and watch as His beloved slowly kills herself.
From the very beginning, He gave us free will, so we could choose to love Him. He did this, knowing that it would come back to bite Him. He did this, knowing that He would have to sit on His hands and watch us choose things that would lead to our destruction. What power is in that!
If it were me, I'd design it whatever way would be easiest for me. I'd design it so that things would work out the best for ME in the long run. I'd work it up so that I wouldn't have to do anything but relish the love and adoration of the people I created.
But He didn't. God took the hard road. He gave us free will, knowing that we'd chose things other than Him. He set Himself up for continuous re-runs of the same ol' same ol'. Stripped of all the religious jargon, that's really the gist of it.
Which leads me back to my original thought.
God. is. crazy.
They say "love is blind". But I don't think that's true. I think, "love is crazy". Crazy enough to deal with the ugly, in the hope for those moments of returned adoration. That's what my life is after all, just a moment in the whole big picture. Just a little blip.
God is crazy enough to think that this "blip" is worth paying attention to. I guess it's my job to make sure it's something worth watching.
